Thread:Amatoresx/@comment-31597382-20190422140501

Hi! So this is told in present tense by Kai and is in his perspective, like you asked, and therefore doesn't delve a lot into Tyv and Ginny's relationship, though their is mentions of it. I hope you like, and sorry about the delay!

They're doing it again.

I sigh, watching them. My sister and my former crush. (maybe not completely former crush), going on a date. Their walking as close as physically possible, nuzzling each other. It both sickens me to see it and makes me go aw all at the same time.

They're a cute couple, don't get me wrong. I like to see couples unashamed of being themselves around each other and of showing people their a couple, no matter where they are, is a breath of fresh air. So few people do that nowadays.

But still. It hurts. A little. I mean, not like a stab straight through the heart or like being ran over by a super, all powerful steam train. I don't have that strong of feelings that need to be purged. I mean, I could probably learn to handle this if they were literally anyone else, but the fact that my sister won and I didn't, is just pretty much insult to injury.

Watching them I feel like a guy who got stabbed multiple times, but has to pretend to be fine because they don't want their loved ones to worry. That's what it seems like to me. I don't want to spoil their good time, and I really don't want to endure taunting until the end of time. (Not an exaggeration.)

Why'd they even invite me?

That was a rhetorical question. I know why they invited me along. They don't entirely hate me, (my sister kind of has to like me, I think their's an unwritten law about that somewhere, how siblings are supposed to like each other and remain friends and allies no matter how much you want to protest otherwise. I think anyway.) And they didn't want me to be left alone.

That's a sweet sentiment I guess. I had nothing else to do today. All my other friends, and I have quite a lot, were busy today. Yes, every single one of them were busy doing something that i either was not allowed to participate in or just didn't want to participate in. It seems a little strange that all of them were bust on the same day, but that's not important right now.

My point is I had nothing to do! Not even homework or something of the like. So my sister invited me to go with her on her date. (Neither of them used the word date, perhaps out of respect for me, or maybe they just didn't want me to feel like a third wheel, but it didn't work, I still do.)

They haven't talked to me at all. We've been together for about twenty five minutes and neither of them has spoken to me other than to say hi and are you ready? You know, the standard stuff that you say to people that you are forced to hang out with even if you would literally rather do anything else in the world.

Wait, would they? Would they rather be doing anything else? Would they rather be, I don't know, walking through a haunted house, swimming in below freezing water in early morning of a freezing cold December day? Or even cleaning out the dungeon in the school?

Was I wrong in thinking they liked me? Did they tolerate me instead? Or did they, heaven forbid, hate me with every fiber of their beings? Did they just invite me along because they thought it was the right thing to do and they didn't want to look bad in front of others.

Did...Oh! My sister's talking. "I think this would be a good spot to set up the picnic." She opens a picnic basket, and motions for the rest of us to start getting to work.

My crush grabs the blanket out of her satchel, and spreads it out. I sit on it, thinking hard. What did they really think of me? I know that my crush remained forever unrequited and therefore she didn't feel the same about me as I felt about her, and maybe she felt even worse about me, and my sister? Their may be a law that siblings have to like each other, even if it may kill them for doing so, (I don't really know whether or not that's weird or if I just made that up), but even then, she could just be faking it because of that law.

Each one of these thoughts, which even I will admit are pretty dark and heavy, even by my standards, felt like a knife was stabbing me repeatedly in the chest. And not one of those tiny knifes that people use to peel vegetables when they can't find a proper vegetable peeler, or even one of those pocket knifes that practically every boy from age nine to twelve has on them at all times. No, it felt more like a really big clever was hacking away at my heart in order to make me feel awful.

Why was I doing this to myself? Why was I just sitting here while my former crush feeds my sister a strawberry, and they laugh cutely. I was torturing myself. I could just walk away and leave and no one would be the wiser.

That thought replays over and over in my head. Finally, I decide to act upon it. I stand up, with the full intention of stalkin away because in all honesty, neither of them would notice, they are too hung up in each other.

Before I can my crush stops me. "Where are you going Kai? If you leave now then at least half of this chocolate cake will go to waste because there is no way Ginny or I can eat it all by ourselves!"

A smile tugs at the corner of my mouth.

"Yeah Kai, we aren't going to eat it all, and you are a notorious bottomless pit, so you might as well stay and help us with disposing of all this food." My sister cuts in.

I was wrong. I sat back down, laughing at the face my sister pulls. They did want me around, and...in all honesty. If I couldn't have Tyvainea Thief as my girlfriend, I'm glad my sister can.  