User blog:GrimmsDePytheLover/A Letter from The Grimms

Dear Wikians,

If you haven't noticed (which I doubt you have), I've been pretty inactivit. Yeah I pop into chat once or twice and than get lost in the conversation, but I haven't really been working on ocs. Thats because my mental state is not better. I haven't gotton over what happaned a few months ago. I can't go to the place I love with out crying and I can barely get out of bed in the morning and smile.

I'm also been focausing on NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). I have to reach 10,500 words by the end of the month (As of writing this, I'm at 7,584 words.). It's sorta hard to write since what I'm writing about reminds of what happaned. Also, I'm on chapter five and i still haven't introduced the last of five main characters. Plus, my friend, Henry, has writers block AND I SO WANT TO HELP HIM but I simple ''can't. ''Writer's issues.

But everytime I look at my ocs, I don't see anything important. I see my little piece of trash. For some reason, I'm so scared to edit a page because I'm scared of rejection. I'm not going to be as good as some of the other users on this wiki, so why should I matter. This darn brain simply hates me. I feel ignored and that I simply don't belong. No one reads what I say, no one cares whatever happans to me. I can make the same exact oc as someone else and they other person will be praised.

I also just got back from this camp thing that we do for school. I made a friend, yah! But one of my other so called "friends" might reuin it because, quess what, this new friend is a guy and of course my friend is shipping me with him. I acutrally have a friend I don't want that to be ruind because my friend is plans to tell him that I "like like" him and that I dreamed about kissing him. Which is all not true, she just likes reuining my life.

So thats my life update. I'll be taking a pretty long break since I don't feel like this is the place where I can escape reality anymore. So, if this is the last time you hear from me, I have one last thing to say,

Goodbye,

~Grimms

(P.S happy epilpesy awarness month!)